Something Funny Happened On The Way To The Diner

…follow thou me.  John 21:22 (KJV)

I’m in a hotel again.  It seems so long ago that I was writing of being in this same hotel and the loneliness I was feeling after all the chaos and intensity of Ashley’s accident.  I wrote about a diner and what it would be like to meet Jesus.

It’s different this time.  I can look out my hotel window and see that same diner, but I’m in a different section of the hotel so my view of the diner is different.  It made me think back to that long lonely night and contrast it to how I feel tonight.  A lot has happened since that night.  Ashley has had a truly miraculous turnaround.  I have been through a glimpse of my own personal hell, but it seems different now. 

At least for this moment, I don’t have that desperate feeling of wishing I could meet Jesus.  I feel like I have met Him!  Through all that’s happened, even since that “Diner” moment, somehow I, for the first time ever, feel like I have met Jesus.  And I gotta say – it sure isn’t because of anything I have done.  On the contrary – this whole thing has been so out of my control, so in spite of me; trying to overthink it, fearing I’d find some way to screw it up, fretting it would all somehow just evaporate and I would just be left with, well - me.  But it hasn’t.  Jesus seems as near now as when I met him in the diner.

I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out what it was all supposed to look like in practical terms.  How am I supposed to live out this thing called faith?  What am I supposed to do?  Good grief!  That thinking was so anxiety-producing!  I think I have an answer.  I don’t know if it’s the answer, but I have to say – I give up.  I don’t know what it will look like.  Don’t know what the plan is.  But, Jesus is alive and well.  I have seen Him, so I have seen the Father, so I suppose I’ll just have to stop worrying about what it looks like and just follow Him.

I mean really!  How much easier can this part (I don't delude myself about ease) of it be?  I don’t have to figure it out, or devise a plan.  I don't have to pave the way.  I can try to simply trust an Almighty God to lead the way.  I just gotta follow.